Wow, so it’s already been ten days since my last entry? Certainly doesn’t feel that way. Shows the madness that is my life at the moment, I suppose. So much of my life is currently laser-focused on two things: 1. Determining where I will be in two months and 2. selling pretty much everything that isn’t nailed down to raise funds. It would be inaccurate to say that writing comes a distant third, as I am still writing everyday, albeit in a much-reduced capacity, but the end result is the same, in that I’m not working on the novel as much as I would like.
Truth is, I’m not good for much else than journal writing at the moment, most of it centered around the difficulties that we’re facing right now. Writing anything else has been extraordinarily difficult, as the feelings and situations of my fictional characters pale next to what I’m experiencing. The silver lining is that it’ll bring some more authenticity when I’m ready to write a story that have characters who undergo such trials, I guess.
In the meantime, not too much to report. This week I interview for the new version of my old position and while I feel confident, I know better than to believe I have the situation locked down. Any number of elements could converge to keep me out of the position. I’m prepared for that, however, which helps the confidence level. I also plan to write a bit more this week, as time (and nerves) allow. Sooner or later I plan to tell the whole story of this difficult period, but not just yet. As with all such situations, I need the benefit of time and context to judge what’s going on.
Anyway, I’m not abandoning the site this time. I’m not ready to do that. I’ll see you again soon.