The last week has been rather…interesting. I think I mentioned it previously, but my boss came to me one day last week, I believe it was Tuesday, with a very high-visibility, high-profile project with an incredibly short deadline. I burned my way through it and delivered what seems to be a high-quality document, but in the process I seem to have burned myself out a little on structured writing. That’s why you things have languished just a bit, and I considered dropping the blog for awhile. In the end, I’ve decided that I have to do what I’ve done during other fallow periods: push through. I’ve been knocked down, but I won’t let myself lie there, even if I feel drained and have had some stomach issues that may have been a bug, may have been stress-related.
What I really want to talk about here is persistence. Persistence is what gets you through writing another chapter when the only thing you want to do is hide in bed. Persistence is what makes you keep on writing blog entries, to keep on moving in the face of the world’s impressive amount of apathy. Persistence keeps you from falling into the trap of waiting for inspiration. I know it has for me. I’m not sure if it’s a bull-headed consistency or something else that drives me onward. I think it’s something that most writers need, though.
We all have days/weeks/months were each word is pure agony to draw from within. Hell, I’m experiencing it right now. But sometimes we have to accept that not everything is going to be great and know that merely good enough is the best we can do, at least starting out. And hey, sometimes all you need is the habit. Sometimes pushing through the mess in your mind is enough to push away the fog and get started on something else.
I think it’s also important to take care of yourself. That can’t be overestimated. A good night’s sleep is my best ally when it comes to sharp, aware writing. That’s why I have such difficulty writing when I’m sick – sleep does not come easily, and as a result I just feel like staring at the wall for a few hours. Yesterday was such a day, yet I managed to push my way through another chapter in the novel and get something of a blog entry posted, even if it was a mess. I don’t feel like today’s entry is that much better, but I’m going to push through this and come out on the other side, just as I have before.